It\u2019s 2014, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing.<\/p>\n
Two nights ago it was New Year\u2019s Eve. Prior to the evening, several people asked about my plans, whether or not I\u2019ll have a significant other to kiss, I replied, \u201cYes, but she\u2019ll be in my dreams.<\/em>\u201d I slept through the delightful shift into the new year, and without hesitation. But prior to my sleep, I watched The Apartment<\/em>. The Billy Wilder classic was the first film I\u2019ve watched from the acclaimed director. I found it fitting because the film coincidentally ended during New Year\u2019s Eve. Although the protagonist had a better outcome, overall I related to the film quite a bit. I think it\u2019s one of my favorite romantic comedies now. It was a quotable film too. Anyway, this year will be full of blessings and, possibly love? — I doubt it. Actually, I highly doubt it. The chances aren\u2019t slim, but I don\u2019t think my heart is into it anymore. I think I lack the energy for a relationship. Remember I mentioned that I would kiss her in my dreams, well I didn\u2019t. In fact, I\u2019m not quite sure what happened. My dreams were bland, and I woke up feeling empty. I still have a void. A tremendous void. I\u2019m fine though. Don\u2019t worry. Like I said, this year will be full of blessings, and opportunities, and chances, and — You know what? I really don\u2019t know. Yes, it\u2019s a new year. The numbers changed, but uncertainty stays the same. I\u2019m definitely a perfectionist with flaws, an optimists with doubts. I do have the fortitude, well I like to believe I do, to surpass any hindrances. Not sure where this blog is going this year, or if I\u2019ll achieve anything significant, but this definitely will be my last dire post.<\/p>\n Until next time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" It\u2019s 2014, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing.<\/p>\n Two nights ago it was New Year\u2019s Eve. Prior to the evening, several people asked about my plans, whether or not I\u2019ll have a significant other to kiss, I replied, \u201cYes, but she\u2019ll be in my dreams.\u201d I slept through the delightful shift into the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=19"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20,"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19\/revisions\/20"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=19"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=19"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.abayarts.com\/benjaminabaya\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=19"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}