2014.

It’s 2014, I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing.

Two nights ago it was New Year’s Eve. Prior to the evening, several people asked about my plans, whether or not I’ll have a significant other to kiss, I replied, “Yes, but she’ll be in my dreams.” I slept through the delightful shift into the new year, and without hesitation. But prior to my sleep, I watched The Apartment. The Billy Wilder classic was the first film I’ve watched from the acclaimed director. I found it fitting because the film coincidentally ended during New Year’s Eve. Although the protagonist had a better outcome, overall I related to the film quite a bit. I think it’s one of my favorite romantic comedies now. It was a quotable film too. Anyway, this year will be full of blessings and, possibly love? — I doubt it. Actually, I highly doubt it. The chances aren’t slim, but I don’t think my heart is into it anymore. I think I lack the energy for a relationship. Remember I mentioned that I would kiss her in my dreams, well I didn’t. In fact, I’m not quite sure what happened. My dreams were bland, and I woke up feeling empty. I still have a void. A tremendous void. I’m fine though. Don’t worry. Like I said, this year will be full of blessings, and opportunities, and chances, and — You know what? I really don’t know. Yes, it’s a new year. The numbers changed, but uncertainty stays the same. I’m definitely a perfectionist with flaws, an optimists with doubts. I do have the fortitude, well I like to believe I do, to surpass any hindrances. Not sure where this blog is going this year, or if I’ll achieve anything significant, but this definitely will be my last dire post.

Until next time.